mipie's absences.

[Natalie Summers]

i'll be putting all of my absences here so it wouldn't be a hassle.
lulz.

first of all.
i have exams this monday and tuesday so i have to go and be
smart and actually study. D: so for majority of sunday, the whole of
monday and majority of tuesday, i have exams. RAWR. which really
really sucks because the internet is my home. and for those who
know, idk if i've talked much, i've been going through a really tough
personal stage right now. i've been really really depressed and again, to those who know, i'm not very sane when i'm depressed
and i tend to do... things. the very thought of my college entrance
exam in TWO WEEKS in the biggest university of my country, trying
to figure out a way into US colleges without spending a lot of
money which, AGAIN, to those who know i'm in deep financial crisis
mode. and the fact that my classmates are complete a.holes and
half the school population mocking and making fun of me in my
condition aka veryyyy low self esteem. some of you may be going
all 'OMGISTHISAJOKE? MIPIEDEPRESSEDNUWHEY." but you know
that old saying about comedians, funny people and those people
who appear so hyper and happy all the frickin' time be the saddest,
most depressed people ever deep within and they're just trying to
hide it so they don't feel so pathetic? well yeah, it's true. and i've
been like this for about a few weeks now and i just haven't been
showing it really. but it's starting to build up and catch up on me
and i'm in a stage right now where i just don't know what to do.
WOW. IT'S MY FIRST BREAKDOWN AS A FIFTEEN YEAR OLD. but
probably one of my biggest breakdowns ever, bigger than edward arriba, to those who know what that douche did to me. but yeah. i
don't know how long this breakdown & depression will last. the last
time this happened i couldn't, really COULDN'T post a post for a
week, or longer for any of my sites. hence, me being unusually
slow. but i just haven't been my typical mipie self and school isn't
exactly helping.

pies and donuts to anyone who reads all that.

XOXO,
MiPie